I'm sick of the media: Indian media and the little access to Pakistani media that I have.
Sure they've done a commendably comprehensive job of covering the gory tale. Sure they've infused into it a mix of reporting the news and portraying public sentiment.
Sure the country is pissed.

And I'm sure that there is so much that we, I, the aam admi, does not know about the incident and will probably spend my lifetime without knowing.

What are things you ask? Oh Lets see:
Did the RA&W really pass on intel info about the attack? Why didn't anyone do anything about it?
How come nobody has been caught so far in the Mumbai train blasts, the Hyderabad blasts, the series of explosions across - Bangalore, Delhi, Jaipur, Ahmedabad etc?
How come we elected *shudder* into power the very party members who riled up the Babri Masjid chaos of my childhood?
How come we re-elected the very bastard who is accused of commissioning genocide in Gujrat?

And of course the all important: how come I care this time?
(Well atleast this one, there is some hope of reasoning out)


Given all the unknowns: this attack on Mumbai is not, can not be, about India versus Pakistan - at least not at a civilian level it can't. Yes I'm not on the shores right now, so yes you can accuse me of not knowing what it is like out there.

But I imagine (and yes again, I do have an active imagination) that the average Pakistani, like the average Indian, dreams of maybe enough money to feed her family, own her house, send her children to a decent college, travel the world, be an acclaimed author, be a best-selling musician...
I know friends who have Pakistani friends and I know they mourned for the victims of Mumbai.

I've not seen a war first hand. But haven't as a race not seen enough by now of suffering, of pain, of the horror of war, bloodshed and death?
Is that not reason enough to say the right now what the average person needs is NOT war.

I am greatly angered by the attacks on Mumbai. I am angered also at every irresponsible comment about how we should go to war with the neighbouring country because the terrorist supposedly has been trained there. I am disgusted by security gurus, members of parliament and assorted other random netizens who at such an hour provoke conflict by making charged comments on "the enemy".

I'm ashamed - that I have not cared enough to vote. That we let it come this far. That our system has more holes than a piece of cheese.

And I, don't know what to do about it.